Sunday, April 2, 2017

Oy Vey! At First I Thought Google Had Betrayed Me - But It Was My Own Self Wot Did! - And Now I Have To Let This Blog Go Too!!

I googled myself to see if something I'd posted elsewhere was going to appear in the Google search that I didn't want to appear there. What I discovered was that this blog, this I thought carefully protected from the public blog, appeared in the search under my name.

What the what?!, I thought. How could this happen?! My blog is not registered under my name or my main email address! I immediately blamed google, of course. But then I saw it! There in my blog profile! My full name!!! AAAACK!!!! It was an uneducated mistake on my part! And to think that it's been like this since the beginning!

This means that ONCE AGAIN, I DO NOT HAVE PRIVACY FROM MY FOO, AND THAT ONCE AGAIN THEY HAVE ACCESS TO MY BLOG AND HAVE BEEN READING THINGS I WOULD NOT WANT THEM TO READ!
And please know that my ex-sister, the spy, will have definitely found it.

I'm feeling so exposed.
And vulnerable.
And sad.
And sorry.
And stupid.
And even a bit violated.
And very disappointed.
And very stressed-out.

It's only been less than a year since I permanently orphaned myself from them out of necessity for my health, sanity, happiness, and freedom.

I thought I was finally safe from them---because I finally had gotten them to stop contacting us---and I thought I was finally free to be the blogger that I want to be: To just be myself and to be able to write my heart and soul. And to grow in talent and substance as a blogger and writer. And to grow as a person who is becoming her true self at long last.

What a shocker that I have to kiss a fifth blog goodbye due to those unfortunate people.


Oh Well! I find that I'm not overly broken-up about it. First of all, a spiritual practice of mine is to not get attached to things. Secondly, I can create a "real" last blog if I want to, and this time I won't make any mistakes in revealing it to anyone I don't want it revealed to.

I apologize to my subscribers. I have no way of knowing who you are or how to reach you to let you know if I create a new blog, unless we're friends on Facebook or elsewhere.

Dr. Smith Says It Well!


..."Oh the pain of it all!"