Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Doctor Visit -- First In Over A Year -- Told Her About My Alcoholism

Well, it makes sense to blog about my sobriety now and then on this blog!
May It Inspire Others

First of all, now that I'm 60, I've decided to give western medicine another chance, trust my newish doctor, and go see her more often. After all, there's a list of things to get checked-out by now.

Dr. Wolinski, DO, has already shown me she is teachable and validating about ME/CFS, unlike any other primary care physician I have tried over two decades. She eagerly borrowed my DVD, Forgotten Plague (link in right margin. video available on amazon prime), which made me feel really good and cared about. My biological dentist, Dr. Yoo, watched it last year, the dear soul that he is, and he said it helped him very much to understand my situation before doing my grueling bridge work.

It felt really good and right telling Dr. W. about my drinking history. She was very surprised. She was so darn supportive and non-judgmental and readily agreed to keep it out of my medical records.

There are no words to describe how grateful I am for that miraculous healing I got in November that freed me from the clutches of my decades-long on-again-off-again torrid love affair with alcohol.
When I think about what I was doing to my already very ill body, including sucking up probably ALL the vitamin B12, which I'm already depleted of due to a thing called MTHFR Mutation, which is separate from the ME/CFS or the Hashimotos Thyroiditis----anyway, when I think "How could I have done that to myself? Drunk alcohol like I did??" The only answer is "Because you're an alcoholic and drinking made you feel normal."

So, I'm celebrating all this sobriety, the few slips I had (12/8, 12/9, 2/24) to me were part of my recovery process. That last fairly recent one really showed me how different I am now because I hated every moment of it, even that initial buzz that drinkers live for. And the secret truth is, that when I chose to buy some beer I was telling myself I could drink once a month just to feel normal and no one would be the wiser. THANK GODGODDESSUNIVERSE THAT DID NOT TAKE HOLD!!!