Well, it makes sense to blog about my sobriety now and then on this blog!
May It Inspire Others
First of all, now that I'm 60, I've decided to give western medicine another chance, trust my newish doctor, and go see her more often. After all, there's a list of things to get checked-out by now.
Dr. Wolinski, DO, has already shown me she is teachable and validating about ME/CFS, unlike any other primary care physician I have tried over two decades. She eagerly borrowed my DVD, Forgotten Plague (link in right margin. video available on amazon prime), which made me feel really good and cared about. My biological dentist, Dr. Yoo, watched it last year, the dear soul that he is, and he said it helped him very much to understand my situation before doing my grueling bridge work.
It felt really good and right telling Dr. W. about my drinking history. She was very surprised. She was so darn supportive and non-judgmental and readily agreed to keep it out of my medical records.
There are no words to describe how grateful I am for that miraculous healing I got in November that freed me from the clutches of my decades-long on-again-off-again torrid love affair with alcohol.
When I think about what I was doing to my already very ill body, including sucking up probably ALL the vitamin B12, which I'm already depleted of due to a thing called MTHFR Mutation, which is separate from the ME/CFS or the Hashimotos Thyroiditis----anyway, when I think "How could I have done that to myself? Drunk alcohol like I did??" The only answer is "Because you're an alcoholic and drinking made you feel normal."
So, I'm celebrating all this sobriety, the few slips I had (12/8, 12/9, 2/24) to me were part of my recovery process. That last fairly recent one really showed me how different I am now because I hated every moment of it, even that initial buzz that drinkers live for. And the secret truth is, that when I chose to buy some beer I was telling myself I could drink once a month just to feel normal and no one would be the wiser. THANK GODGODDESSUNIVERSE THAT DID NOT TAKE HOLD!!!
Wednesday, March 29, 2017
Sunday, March 26, 2017
1) I write because every time I do, no matter what I write or whom I'm writing to, I feel connected to my muse/my twin soul!
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Well, OK, that's a bit of an exaggeration, but honestly? Not much of one! Not much of one AT ALL!
Friday, March 17, 2017
What may have happened at the crucifixion (I've heard this from other sources as well), that Jesus didn't die on the cross and why and how Mother Mary, Mary Magdalene, and Elizabeth helped him survive, that Jesus and Mary Magdalene were married twin souls, that more and more twin souls are reuniting in the present time to fulfill a mission....
Wednesday, March 15, 2017
Beloved Anah Maa. TRUTH. Wake Up!
Personally, I won't go so far as to give up media, but I do take frequent breaks from TV and Internet and SmartPhone. And I pay close attention to how I feel in my body. If I start to feel stressed in any way, or my thoughts spiral into negativity, it's definitely time to get out of the matrix for a while, go within, find peace and love and joy in my heart and breath.